Letting Go
By Laura J. Christian

Cuddling my 4-year-old son while reading a bedtime story, I pause to inhale the sweet scent of his hair and listen to his young voice anticipate the next line of the familiar tale. I am deeply in love with the little boy in my arms.

Yet he is not the same person whom I fell in love with 4 years ago. Each day he continues to grow and change, and I find myself falling in love all over again. However the hardest and most surprising part is that in falling in love again, I must let go and say good-bye to whom he was. The innocent baby nursing at my breast and the charming toddler blazing full-speed ahead have vanished forever to live only in my memories

I hug my son tightly knowing that who he is right this instant will soon be lost as he grows into who he is meant to be.

For now I will just continue love and let go over and over again until that final day arrives and I release him to the world to soar on his own with the hope that the love I poured into him along the journey was enough.

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